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A last minute dash to Orange (not famous for producing oranges) to see a sick relative I hold very dear to my heart saw my 2 days off fly by almost unnoticed. The short trip was worth it though as I got to say one last goodbye to a woman who has inspired me with her Happy-go-lucky attitude and will to keep fighting - even 10 years after we expected her battle to be over.

Though I plan to erase the bad memories of helplessly watching her suffer all these years when she passes, its still grounding to see someone fight then loose the battle to illness. I can not help but feel guilty for all the times I whinge about petty nothings, or snap at someone for something too insignificant to recall the following day . It really does bring things back to reality.

The one thing I have never quite understood is how even at the darkest of hours; life still goes on. I cant figure if its comforting or inconsiderate that when our personal world stops moving, Earth seems to keep turning at record pace. Not even contenplating a pause.

I piled my thoughts into the car and set off to the park for some serious ponderings. As I strolled through chasing butterflys and pretending I hadn't a care in the world, the sun decided to show its face. I guess the sun really does come out tomorow after all. Im reminded of all the little things I subconsciously love about Orange again. The parks rich green colours, the petite idealistic houses, the wildlife that wander, the wide open streets and the tempremental weather conditions; it could be snowing on the mountain one minute, boiling hot the next. I guess I needed this visit after all